Random thought (not really it's been quite a permanent one)

Some people fret over feeling like they don't belong anywhere. The problem with me? I feel like I belong everywhere, and I find myself tearing myself apart all the time. And I am obsessed— obsessed with self-conceived obligations and unnecessary commitment. It is always what he wants, what she wants, what they want. I've forgotten what I want anymore.

2/2

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As I type this, I am sitting across the table and looking at you, thinking,

I'm so glad you're not just anther bro.

From the bed

I think losing my entire bag including my wallet, my brand new iPhone6, my favourite out-of-production pink guava lip balm and the most important form of identification within a mere night truly spelt out c-r-i-s-i-s for me. The past week has been devastating and disappointing yet surprising, silly and blissful all at once, like pretending we're going on an adventure to the police station and looking forward to seizing the chance for a London getaway while we collect documents from the embassy, although there's no need for that now 'cause everything has been returned back safely to us. I sound like a fool, but maybe I am (a willing) one when I've got you behind my back.

Elsa lai liao

Can't really see it from the pictures but yes it snowed in Manchester on the day we're all cooped up in our rooms prepping for our exams and that made me more than delighted to step out into the cold just to get a taste of snowfall (metaphorically and literally). Snow reminds me of change (of seasons) and change reminds me of how "we should concern ourselves not so much with the pursuit of happiness but the happiness of pursuit." (Hi Sally if you're reading this!) Today is 18 Jan of the new year and I've officially been here for 4 months and 12 days. That's a tad more than a third of the year flown by, and I've come to realise the joy of chasing after the changes I want to make. Because if I can't change the world, perhaps changing everything else might make things better.

Favourite fix

Sub-par pub dinner, a game of pool, and you.

Studying is the bane of my existence, but today wasn't too bad.

:-)