27/11

I think the scariest part was knowing it was coming but not knowing when. And sometimes I feel that life finds the thrill in toying around with me; because a week ago you started learning how to eat on your own again. A week ago, you still knew who I was and you could speak a little. A week ago I was browsing for plane tickets to head back home in February because you'd love it if I was back for chinese new year. A week ago, I told myself I'd call "tomorrow" because "you'd still be there". Then it happened so quickly and unexpectedly, yet still, I didn't feel much - or at least not as much as I thought I would. Because for once, this felt right, even if it's in all the wrong ways. Because maybe, just maybe, everyone will be happier this way - even you. Iwmy.

Lake District

This hike to the Lake District was the second last event we've organised for Singsoc as a comm member and to be honest I feel pretty bummed about that because let's be frank, being a part of a committee has never felt more empowering and fulfilling. These 9 months of duty have taught me a crucial lesson in life, and that is that the view at the summit will always, always be worth the ominous fog and slippery rocks. A piece of me will be ever-thankful for this opportunity.

          

Grasmere, Lake District / October, 2015 

[iPhone6]

Titus > Tiffany

Who needs Tiffany when you've got Titus? ;-) This was a birthday gift from J and I felt like dressing up to match up this precious, precious piece today. I got up in my floral babydoll dress and pointelle knit tights and hid frilly lace socks underneath my trusty pair of Timberlands just because I secretly like the subtlety of the frills showing only when I'm walking. I think I'm weird and I think everyone should wake up happy for no reason every once in a awhile.

As much as I'm been stirring trouble for myself (i.e. losing my phone and losing my consciousness) this October, I think I've also started doing a lot of things I've put off for a very long time. I'm not sure if it's my coming-of-age (or came-of-age, to be exact) that haunts me but I don't have long till I'll back home for good so I might as well do things that I can while I can - things like running with strangers, signing up for seemingly stupid enrichment programmes, hiking on mountains, etc. I am utterly thrilled for what I've planned ahead for both the fun (more sports and activities) and the essential (career-planning and well, generally life-planning).

I'm ready to work hard and play hard :-)

You used to call me on my cell phone

My phone was taken from me at the club last night, and it bothers me more than it should. Because I screwed up again and I should have been shy after being bitten twice. Young wild and free? More like young wild and downright careless... :-( I need to pick up my own mess and get moving again.

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Today, he held my hand and squeezed it tight, like he last did a decade ago. Then he looked at me and told me to go.