Monday, September 29, 2014

People

I know, I know, my previous post must have made it seem like I'm really sad to be here in Manch but don't worry, a lot has changed for the better in the past two weeks. I wasn't sad, I just felt lost I guess. It's tough not to feel lost when you're thrown into a whole new world on your own.

After I spent my first night alone in my new room, I told myself that I had to go out there and meet people. So that was it. The next morning, I armoured myself with audaciousness and entered the canteen alone. (If you don't know me well, I really hate eating alone. But, it's food. I had to survive.) I figured out how the canteen system worked, grabbed my food, and scurried off to look for a seat. I scanned the entire place quickly and saw another girl eating alone, then my target was set. Her name is Rebecca. I walked towards her, and asked her very bluntly, "Are you alone?" She said yes. I said, "Great, let's be alone together then." And this is the story of how I met my first meal buddy in Ashburne. Sometimes I think I can be really shameless.


I also hung out with my hall mates, Gavonique and Sophia for the first time two Wednesdays ago. It was my first fresher's party and it was an amaaaazing one. Think UV paint and legit bouncy castles and cheap jagerbombs. It was sick. Gavonique is British-Indian and she's my closest hall mate thus far because we're always not home for all the hall gatherings so we literally just meet to eat and sleep everyday. Her name's so unique (hah it rhymes), isn't it? Apparently it's Spanish or something. As for Sophia, we literally met in the toilet when I was preparing to head out and asked if she wanted to join Gavs and I. It was so cold that night while we were waiting to get into the club that I had to hug her arm to keep myself warm even though we barely knew each other yet. Oh, and she's Finnish! There's no big deal in that but I think it's really cool. I mean c'mon, how often do you get to meet a Finnish?

But to sum it up, I think the more prominent people in my life right now are Lorena, Youliang and James. I met them at a Singapore Society camp earlier in August. I think it's so important to have a home base to return to when you just feel like hiding yourself in your comfort zone on weathered days. They are my home base. I see them everyday, even though we don't have classes together or live together. Meeting them has somewhat become part of my daily routine. I even have my own toothbrush in Lorena's room because I go over that often. Her flatmates are almost like my flatmates now. And Youliang just comes in the package. As for James, he is so important to me in the weirdest ways. I literally can't go home without him when it's late at night because it's so scary to walk the streets alone. It is so nice to have someone in your reach, for a bowl of comfort curry chicken or for a chill night at the bar. It is so nice to have someone who you can go both shopping and studying with. It is so nice. But he might be moving out of Fallowfield soon, and I don't know what I would I do without him...

I would tell you more about more people I've met so far but that would probably bore you to death so I'll stop here for now and let the pictures do the talking. 


Fresher's Icebreaker Party @ TigerTiger


Failed Harry Potter theme with my favourite ang moh Olivia.


Major unglam shot of James but he looks so happy here.


The Black Party @ Sakura

All in all, I think I'm pretty much starting to love living in this city already :-)

P.s. Clubs here in general suck so bad. Sorry I took you for granted as well, Zouk.

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Manchester-bound

I've moved into Manchester since the start of last, last weekend but last night was only the second night I've actually slept in my hall room so all my things are unpacked and thrown all over the place. It's a wreck down here. Anyway, the past few days have been a blur. I'm not going to lie, Manchester is a boring city (or at least to me for now). Most days I find myself lying on my bed feeling nothing but aimlessness. Having so much free time on hand suddenly bothers me to death. Sorry I took you for granted, Singapore.

First things first, no I haven't been partying. Drinking, yes. But just not partying. In fact, I've not been to any of the fresher's parties. I also haven't met many of my neighbours yet, mainly because my hall is like a row of prison cells and I'm rarely ever home. I'm spending waaaay too much time with my Singaporean friends at their halls instead. Not that I don't enjoy their company, but I ought to reach out to the people I live with I guess. I'm supposed to be good at this, but this time it feels so different. For once in my life, I actually feel... lonely.

I can't wait for school to start. I really hate not knowing what to do everyday.

Thursday, September 4, 2014

From my favourite therapy spot



I told myself I shouldn't but I did more and more and more and then one day I realised I couldn't stop.

Sarah you are such an idiot. A motherfucking courageous idiot.

 Am I dreaming? 'Cause this is such a stupid dream and I just want to wake up right now.