Dancing on my own

Subway, picture charades, Men In Black III, and the most annoying people of the world.
I've never felt so blissful in a long time. Ol' friends will always be good ol' friends.

Almond Kisses to pull me through this intensive period of mugging and my new tribal tote bag. Chocolate + new loots - studying = happy girl.

Second visit to Cedele for dinner with the fam. Sea Bass whatevers are always my favourite. And crispy bacon strips surprisingly compliment wild blueberry pancakes so well. This gives me an addition to my bucket list: To try out every single dish, whether it's the main courses or the desserts, in Cedele before I go.

Count 'em lucky stars

This was what I've been up to for the past E-learning week:

Project meeting at Auggie's crib last Tuesday. We were the first customer of the day at Koi and we got to savour our usual Green Tea Macchiato. Take a look at Auggie's douche area; all that Nudies, Cheap Monday and April 77 could just be every guy's paradise. Oh, and Auggie was nice enough to provide us with lunch too.

Studying sesh with the XX at Jurong Regional Library like the usual. Had the tastiest chicken rice ever (which I call as "Jurong chicken rice") for lunch and dessert at Marble Slab Creamery. Day by day, we're growing tighter and tighter to each other. I love you, woman. Let's keep this up :')

Dropped by school last Saturday for a diving pool session with the diving committee. That's Nigel, who possesses an uncanny resemblance to Ip Man, and Abel when he's still a young, innocent boy and when he's well.... him now. HAHAH. Love my divers.

Parents went to Bkk over the weekends, Priscilla had to stay over at a friend's place while Vanessa stayed in school for her Girls Brigade camp. Lonelygirl94 for the night was bored and emo that she attempted tribal nails even though she was supposed to study.

After lonelygirl94 wasn't lonely anymore because gbgirl02 and cipgirl96 came home, we headed to the airport to surprise Mom and Pops at three quarters past midnight, when they touched down from Bkk. Such a thrilling night with all the ninja hiding and surprise strategizing. Hehz.

This is Dream Team, my dream team.
EBA presentation's finally over and that's one huge-ass burden swept off my shoulders.

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And now, I'm back from Ban Mian and mugging with Keith and Ryan, just like the good ol' days, except we were missing the rest. I've been longing for the day that The Family reunites again. Call me naive, but I'd hate to give up on hope.

Before I erupt,

“Beware of your thoughts, they become your words.

Beware of your words, they become your actions.

Beware of your actions, they become your habits.

Beware of your habits, they become your character.

Beware of your character, it becomes your destiny.”

It's the mind; it always has been.

Been makin' mountains out of molehills and they eventually turn out to be volcanoes.
This needs to be put to a halt.

Note-to-self:
Remember all the sadness and frustration, and let it go. Let it go.

上海姑娘

I have news to share.

All four of us Ad Infinitum girls (me, Trisha, Xin Xian and Ericia) made it through the Overseas Immersion Programme - Shanghai selections. That means I've to bid my Sept holidays, Priscilla's birthday and my birthday goodbye, but I wouldn't push away an opportunity of spending 5 weeks in Shanghai together with the closest people of my school life.

This is overwhelmingly surprising and the phone call from Trisha, that abruptly interrupted my precious sleep, triggered a minor heart attack in me.

For all the hurdles and obstacles we've crossed, we're eventually gonna be together again.
You can't deny that this is fate :')

Shanghai, here I come.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

"Listen here, in life people do come and go, but do remember true friend is always there for u even u all nvr contact for quite awhile, those are the true friend, doesn't meet up doesn't mean no longer friend! But just busy with own thing!" - Alex Yakuza Leo

If only things were this simple.

Gives me hope.

Just when I've sunk into the deepest trough of my life,

Jj, the most unexpected person of the most unexpected people, texted me with a casual "how are you?". It felt weird but goshhhh, I almost teared. And then Joel whatsapped me because he knew I was planning to ton and so was he. He always does this randomly, but still, at least he bothers. Gerald had been texting me since morning (albeit his motive and sporadic replies, I still appreciate it) and so was Chern (texting him makes me feel good with all the smileys he uses).

I've always believed that good things happen to good people, but honestly, Idk how I'm good in any way, to be deserving enough of such loving friends.

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told.

Friday:
The beauty of waking up early, banana breakfast, TWLOHA & Checks, Seizariya for dinz with Ad Infinitum + Jasmine, Auggie and Ivan / my current phone wallpaper and screensaver, checklist of topics that I need to study for common tests which are merely a week away.

5/6 of the above are what keeps me going. #givesmehope :')

Saturday:
Traditional Kopitiam breakfast Set F with Lummy for the first time in a year. It's been so long since we've met and talked about our lives over breakfast. This wasn't even planned. He agreed to meet me just because I needed to pour out to someone. Can I please say how blessed I am to have him? :')

And that above is a Gollum plant. That will be my new baby and I'm gonna name it Golem. Btw I was googling about the Gollum plant species just awhile ago and I discovered that it's also known as a Hobbit plant. Speak about coincidence. Sigh, I miss Imran.

Today:
Dinz with the fam at BALIthai and Vanessa's Sweetheart Donuts from House of Mini.

Just realised how I tend to plan out the sequence of the food on my plate to be eaten, because I'd make sure that the last thing that goes into my mouth leaves a satisfying after taste that'll last me at least till the next meal. Just saying.

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I really need a day to sit down and sort my life out.

I need a little more hope than a little bit.

What am I worth to you? A speck of dust, I should think. Or perhaps, nothing at all.

All these time, you've been harping on the fact of their negligence towards you, and I've never failed to be your listening ear and assure you that I wouldn't be one of them and that I'd be the one who'd stick by you. But has it ever occurred to you that perhaps you should focus on your negligence towards me too? One out of a hundred occasions do you initiate anything with me at all, be it a simple ice-cream date, a meal or even a most basic conversation. This isn't rocket science. You need not calculate the mass of the sun just to keep this friendship that we share, up and going. I'm but a question away, but you. don't. even. give. a. shit.

You must really be happy today, but I'm really not.
I want you back, but you've been gone for far too long.
Thnks fr th mmrs, but they end here now, today, this instance,
Until the day you learn how to fight for me or until I find the will to keep on chasing again.

And for now, I'd sleep away while you slip away.

How I feel right now? As bitter as the cup of sugarless coffee that's about to keep me awake throughout the entire night.

World up only got Mother good

Last Sunday was Mother's Day. Did y'all do anything for your Mom? 'Cause I did :)

Mother's Day dinner at The Cartel Bistro with the fam. The virgin mojito was mm mmm gooood.

After dinner, I used a little help from Dad and my lil' sister to distract Mom and to buy me some time while I "rushed back to work on a project" which was actually sneaking off to buy her a Mother's Day cake from Awfully Chocolate.

She turned in early that night so we had to wake her up from her sleep when we surprised her with the cake at midnight. 

I would pay for thousands of cakes just to see her smile this wide again :')

But that wasn't just the end of it yet. Pris, Vanessa and I planned for her to be in for more. Strategized to stay up through the night so that we'd be able to get up before Mom does and make her breakfast, but needless to say, I was the eventual sole survival. Tried occupying myself with preparing the presents and cards to pull me through the arduous night but I made a wrong move, which was to utilize the super glue. The wretched sticky liquid was caught between my fingers and Mom happened to witness me struggling to free myself from the mess, so she had to save me, which meant that she received the privilege of having a sneak peak of what her present was already. Sighhhh, ultimate fail is me.

But anyway, thankfully she went back to bed again soon after, so our Surprise Plan B hadn't been ruined yet.

By 6am, it took me awhile to get the sisters to move their asses off their beds before we started working on Surprise Plan B in the kitchen.

So, we made a royal breakfast for her which was semi-unsuccessful. Our apparent "sauteed" shiitake mushrooms tasted weirdly bitter and our bacon strips turned out pathetically small. But oh well, at least our scrambled eggs and bruschettas were up to standard.

Just wanna say, I love my mom till the end of the universe and back. Mwah :*