Enough is enough

So, are we at the part where I'm supposed to feel guilty in this story yet? It always ends this way anyway, but you know what? Today, I'm the author, and I'm changing the fucking storyline.

You are so sensitive, it scares me. I'm not using my private journal to write about how we should go about solving the issues between us anymore, I'm telling you these right here right now, because 1) the issues just keep piling up 2) why the hell do you think I created a private journal in the first place for? It's for me to jot down words I cannot say, not to fucking debate or go to war against you all the time. So what if you were the only one who had access to it? Didn't make a big deal because most of it was about you anyway. Well, at least now you don't. And you told me you have had enough. I'm telling you, that should be my line.

Nobody told me having a friend was this painful.

Just a thought

I wish I’d stop getting so attached to people too easily,
I wish I’d have a smaller network of friends,
Because I can’t split my body, nor manage my time for nuts.

No, wait. Scrap that.
I’d rather wish I could split my body, than to lose any of them.

I wish I didn’t mean so much to some people,
Because they don’t mean as much to me,
But it aches to put the words across.
I have a conscious, I do.

I start to neglect, easily,
Because I want to be everywhere,
But my wish to be able to split my body hasn’t been granted yet,
So I make little sacrifices here and there,
Or blow it all up and lose all on hand.

I wish I could sleep easily,
Because I come up with posts like that in the middle of the night when I don't.

The Annoying is annoyed.

Hate being accused for something I didn't do or say, wanna go partying with Joelle for New Year but it's okay, payments don't tally, have a million parcels to mail out and 9 notebooks to complete, cancelled 2E outing 'cause of me, not fucking easy to be the outing organiser all the time, hate being spammed with questions before I have the time to even catch a breath, haven't packed luggage for Taiwan, sleep deprived, work at 11am tomorrow fml, half-wanting to postpone my resignation so I can work with Brandon but half-wanting not to either 'cause I'm lazy like that and I don't wanna deal with unreasonable colleagues and I wanna have someone normal to talk to who doesn't have an accent 'cause it's annoying when I go "huh?" like a million times a day. And honestly, I am tired of things and people.

Life ain't no bed of roses.

Tis' the season to be jolly?

Back from the Christmas party at Chong's place! :D



Peeling prawns ^^
Anyway, main point: Look at my shirt.



3 watches from the same store among the presents :B





Awesome car plates from Raynor.

Played Charades, Jenga, Kill-The-Pirate Game etc. to kill the time after we had dindin and exchanged or presents. A couple of 'em went home after we counted down to midnight, then the rest of us stayed on to watch Orphan. I dozed off halfway. Why why why am I such a pig? I've yet to know the ending
-____-

Breakkie at Mac's and an impromptu movie plan at Tampines Mall with Hajar, Chong, Jianhao, Taiming and Xuanhao. Was about to die by the end of the movie. But nevertheless, it's a well-spent Christmas :)

♥

Dear Santa from above,

I haven't been a really good girl, but hey, I tried. Will you grant me a panacea?
Throw me a couple of sleeping pills too.

So, is this you afraid?

Lie in this empty bed
With this aching head
You left me here this morning
Now I can't remember why
I let you in again
To get under my skin
And every time you disappear
I remember

How I look for you
But I can't see your face
And then I hear you
The only thing you say...

I am afraid right now
I don't wanna let you down
And I am the one who can't be saved
The only thing I say
I am afraid right now
What if I can't get out?
What if I don't want to be saved?
This is me afraid

Now there's no place like home
To make me feel alone
I see you everywhere I am
And I remember how you ran out to hide
You kept me close behind
Following your every move so I remember

I look for you
But I can't see your face
And then I hear you
The only thing you say...

I am afraid right now
I don't wanna let you down
And I am the one who can't be saved
The only thing I say
I am afraid right now
What if I can't get out?
What if I don't want to be saved?
This is me afraid

Once in a red moon

"Skygazers with a clear view in North America and Europe were greeted with a celestial treat early Tuesday, as a unique total lunar eclipse turned the Moon pink, coppery or even a blood red.

Coinciding eerily with the northern hemisphere's mid-winter solstice -- for the first time in almost four centuries --the eclipse showed the Sun, the Earth and its satellite as they directly aligned, with the Moon swinging into the cone of shadow cast by its mother planet.

Despite being in shadow, the Moon did not become invisible, as there was still residual light deflected towards it by our atmosphere.

Most of this refracted light is in the red part of the spectrum and as a result the Moon, seen from Earth, turned a reddish, coppery or orange hue, sometimes even brownish.

The fact that the eclipse fell on the exact date of the winter solstice is an extremely rare occurrence and it will only happen next in December 21, 2094, according to Geoff Chester of the US Naval Observatory, quoted by NASA.

The last time it happened was on December 21, 1638."

DEAR RED MOON, I WILL SEE YOU WHEN I'M A CENTURY OLD.

Boh-a-ol

K, I made a retarded mistake at work yesterday.

Indian lady: Can I have a boh-a-ol please?
Me: Sure!
*goes to manager*
Me: That lady wants some boh-a-ol *damn confident*
Manager: What.....? She wants a BOWL.

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Couldn't stop laughing for like 3 minutes. I couldn't catch the lady's accent so I thought she asked for some curry named after boh-a-ol. End up she wanted a bowl -.- I was damn confident that I could pronounce the curry's name correct somemore. Major epic fail.

Anyway, I flew over to my aunt's place after work to help her out with some baking. Baked a few cookies and brought 'em back to pack for the guys since I was gonna meet 'em for dinner today ^^





I kept the chioer ones for my own viewing pleasure though.

We had dindin at 18 Chefs but it didn't feel as fulfilling as usual because I wasn't in the GFM = good food mood.

Merry X'mas, Lummy, JJ, Josh, Sha and Chongy. Hope my cookies don't give you the runs :)

Just a dream.

Perfect day out with Joelle, Fel, Jiaying and Zul. Lunch at KFC & we gossiped / talked cock as usual, then Joelle left for work when the rest of us decided to take neoprints at Cine. Reliving childhood ^^ Throughout the 180 seconds given to us to decorate our neoprints, we panicked at the disco I tell you. -.-




To-get list:

• Topshop USA Flag Shorts, $76
• Fourskin Where's Muthu Shirt, $32.90 (LOL fuckin' hilarious and relevant to my life right now)
  
• X'mas prezzies! $30+?
  

Needa work extra hard this 2 last weeks of the month ^^

Imylh!

ZoOooo00oOOo0oOOoo

Used to be B to the O to the R to the E to the D. Now, I'm T to the I to the R to the E to the D. Been working daily and it really sucks because I become so fatigued at the end of the day. But I took the day off on Wednesday to hang out with my Elephant & Rhino at the zoo :)



Birdies!

Click on people's faces in the photo to tag them.

Babirusa :B









The white tiger.



The moving Kangaroo which was an arm's length away from us.



The damn chio Kangaroo



She tried provoking it LOL.



Meryl is sleeping.



Meryl is doing a stunt.



Meryl: Eh, look at the coloMbus monkey!



THE MONKEY WAS MASTURBATING!!!!!!!!!!



AND AGAIN!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!



LOL LOOK AT THE 3RD FACE. YOU CALL THAT FEAR?!?!





The retarded crocodile who didn't close his mouth in alignment.



& the retarded people who tried imitating it.

And to end this post,



I'm thankful for these two retarded animals, both the Elephant and the Rhino. It's not easy finding friends like these that still remain close and hang out even after not seeing each other for a year or so and even though we're all of different ages. Really not easy at all. Those band days were still the best, though. Pig, Elephant, Rhino ftw! :)

Tandoooooooori Chicken

Yo yo yo yo embryo.

I didn't do anything meaningful yesterday but there's something I did which was being a failure. :'/ The Brotherhood Jury guys went over to Bali yesterday and I missed sending 'em off 'cause I couldn't rush over from work to the airport in time, then I made my customer panic 'cause I amended the time and venue to meet her without prior notice to send the guys instead, but she was kind enough to suit to my convenience and consoled me after I apologised and explained to her why I had to do so. Customers like her make me believe that there are actually some nice people out there. GMH :')

So first day of work was disastrous 'cause I obviously had room for improvement in every aspect, especially attire heh heh heh. I hate bunning up my hair, worse still, with a net. That's so band outdoor-ish and I look really noob. Please don't come and visit me, thx. Didn't do much except serve the drinks, dry the utensils and clean up the tables. The people there are really nice, like Daisy (my manager), Ruvi, Sathish, Shan, Ajeez, Vicki. Need skills to remember all of their names one ok. Not easy at all.

Second day of work were the same basic stuff, but I got to set up tables, serve food and handle the bills too. Varu, the male manager who thought I was Japanese and said my face shows it and who obviously has never met a Japanese before, kept snapping at me when we first met and I swear I hated to him to the core mantle and crust until he started joking with me so it was ok. The angsty chef (I've yet to know his name) finally smiled at me today. I almost toppled a bowl of curry but did a matrix stunt and caught it before it did and my eyes went O_O and my mouth went :O while I was at it so I looked pretty retarded (lol 3 circles on my face). He found it funny and laughed at me, then he started smiling at me from then on everytime I entered the kitchen. They whipped up lovely dishes for my meals and I followed their custom by eating with my fingers. Lesson learnt: Don't act multi-racial anyhow follow people's custom. My fingers still smell like curry even after I've washed / soaked / sanitised it for over a million times.

Ok, blogpost too wordy today. Zoo outing tomorrow!!! ^^ Peekchures 4 u all ok?

P/s: I'll do something meaningful another day.

"My neighbour controls my wireless mouse"

Hello sunshine! :) *looks at the time* Ok, moonshine actually.

I worked as a sales assistant just for today. Although we were on our feet for 7 hours, time passed pretty quickly. $40 into my wallet ^^ There was this cute foreigner who was looking for a wired mouse 'cause he was complaining to me how his wireless mouse was controlled by his neighbour instead LOL!!!!!!!!!! I could go on laughing about this forever & Keith says it's not funny at all. *Bishhh* his face.

Meaningful thing for today:

Hmmm I'm not sure leh. Does sacrificing one of my McWings for half a dollar count? :) & I'll be sleeping early tonight 'cause I'll probably die at Muthu's Curry tomorrow. Meaningful enough?

I'll be right beside you.

Meaningful things for the day:









:)

Oh, Flower

This is the happiest moment of my life. Just an hour ago, the managers of both restaurants recruited us again. MY PRAYERS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED!!!! :)

Now, I'm gonna be a busy bee, teeheehee.

But that kinda sucks 'cause my training day clashes with zoo outing with Elephant, Rhino and friends. I needa postpone it by hook or crook 'cause I haven't seen my piggish friends for years and I miss 'em like hell!!!!!!!!!!

Meaningful thing for the day:

Babysat Vanessa and accompanied her to watch Rapunzel: A Tangled Tale. Such a touching ending to the story. I teared, over a cartoon.... Omg :')

Sadgirlttm94

Both restaurants played us out.

Muthu Curry said they couldn't hire part-timers when I called to check AFTER the manager assured us that we'd get the job. Damn good. Then Tawandang had only one standard line.

Me: Hi, I applied for a job as a waitress a few days ago. May I check when I'll be getting my schedule and such?
Lady: Just wait for the call.
Me: So will you call latest by early next week like what the interviewer said?
Lady: Just wait for the call.
Me: Approximately when will I receive the call?
Lady: Errm around.... Just wait for the call.

I bet you I'll have to wait till 55 years later or something.

Losing 4 jobs within barely a week is really no joke man. Truly FML.
AM I FATED TO BE JOBLESS 4EVA? Someone go find a job with me please :(

Meaningful thing for the day:

Visited popo in the afternoon and she taught me how to crack an egg, fry an egg and fry taufoo. Yes, I didn't know how to crack an egg until after 16 years of my existence on this planet. (: I lugged my whole factory over to kill some time and fixed some of popo's broken jewelry for her. She's still as cute as ever despite her wrinkled skin. I love her to the bits and pieces. ♥

Lol y am I smelling my saliva? -.-

Did you know that if you do this, you can smell your saliva and it really smells bad? Try it. Jannah taught me this :)


And if you puff up your upper mouth while smiling, you get whiskers, like this:


Sorry, it's 1.40am in the morning and I'm bored :/

I close my eyes and I can see a better day

Such a sweet song :')

I'm not a Belieber nor a fan of Justin Bieber, but quit all the flaming about him. Are you jealous that girls adore him more than they adore you? At least he's making the effort to bring a smile to the unfortunate while you cowards behind your computer screens spend your day hating on others. My god. Leave that kid alone. He's only 16.

Meaningful thing for the day:

Caught up with Joelle, Wendy and Jiaying. We planned to meet at 1pm at Cineleisure but started panicking 'cause all of us were gonna be late. What's new? The soles of my shoes broke off while I was walking halfway so I rushed back home to change into a new pair of shoes and I left the house only at 1.05pm, but at least I reached earlier than Jiaying who was an hour and fifteen minutes late. Joelle and I took charge of buying the move tix 'cause only we were officially sixteen.

Joelle & I: 4 tickets for My Soul To Take at 2.40pm please.
*Ticketing Boy gives o.0 look*
Joelle & I: Wanna check our IC?
Ticketing Boy: It's okay, the usher will do the job, but you all are born in 1994 or earlier right?
Joelle & I: Yeap ^^

After leaving the ticketing counter...

Wendy: So, managed to buy? Do you think they will check or not ah?
Joelle & I: Yup, it's okay. They said as long as born in 1994 or earlier. ^^ *like a confident only*
Wendy: But..... Jiaying is born in 1995.
Joelle & I: *stun for 2 seconds* OH SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stupid Jiaying, so young for what?! -.- Thankfully the usher let us in without checking. K, the movie was shit. The genre was thriller but it was more of gore and I didn't understand the full story. Joelle had her eyes covered three-quarter of the time. Overall, we still had a fun time gossiping and window-shopping like we always did before. Heheh, love 'em :)

Because life's more than this

I was bloghopping and I came across Jiaying's blog. At the end of her latest post was...

"Felicia, if you are reading this, just to remind you, you owe me $49. (:"

HAHAHAKSHASDASLKJDLAKSJD I LITERALLY LOL-ED.
Jiaying, if you are reading this, just to remind you, who in the world still reads your deserted blog other than me?! Damn cute la you.

Gonna meet this retarded girl together with Joelle and Wendy tomorrow to catch up for the last time before Joelle leaves for her vacation! ♥

Decided that I shouldn't rot my life away. I'll try to do something meaningful everyday, starting from tomorrow :)

Potosop

I spent my afternoon snapping shots of these babies that I've been working on the past few days and photoshopping them so that they look DSLR-ish. I don't have the DSLR because Stella's still in Shanghai and she's not comin' back till the 19th. Miss her loads... :(

Not bad hor, my photoshop skills? Looks DSLR-ish enough? :)

Then I started playing around with the effects and got that picture above ^. Cool ttm.

I miss

I miss Jux Keydingz so bad, from the bottom of my heart. I miss feeling short beside Stella. I miss Bert and his contagious "so rude". I miss Zul twirling my hair every other lesson. I miss Jianhao's lame jokes and his screamo songs. I miss Chongwei and his fringe (and his sick jokes). I miss Alita and her bitchyness. I miss Taiming. I miss Hajar. I wish Chongwei, Alita and Stella would come back soon so we could all unite again.

I miss my girls. I miss having h2h talks with Joelle. I miss being lame with Felicia. I miss being even lamer with Jiaying. I miss Wendy but I'll be seeing her almost everyday from this week onwards anyway. I miss Arynah and her habit of poking my DaVinci.

I miss Gerald. I'm sorry I promised we'd do all the fun shit together after O's although I don't think I can take time out now to do so other than on Sundays or unless I take leave.

I miss so many people and so many things, but I've been spinning and I really don't know what I can do to bring us back together.

Why am I talking so much today?

Muthu curry~

Well, both job interviews were successful. Working as a waitress at Tawandang, a Thai-German restaurant, on certain days and a waitress again at Muthu Curry (don't laugh), an Indian restaurant, on the other days. And yes, meals are provided for Muthu Curry (don't laugh). This is gonna be so cool.

Am I supposed to feel happy? Because I don't.

I need to slow down for awhile.

*o*

Why the hell am I up so early today?

Oh right -- to buy Super Junior concert tickets for my sister.

Job interview with Wendy later on in the afternoon! I'm crossing my fingers that it'll go well.

To, or to not?

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

Jobless nuaster.

Hello all.

If you've yet to hear about it, I'll mention it again. I quit 2 jobs in 2 days.

Story?

First job - supposed flyer distributor for Apple IT fair. They were over-staffed so instead of distributing flyers, we were instructed to hang around the area, so JJ and I literally lepak-ed for the first few hours. After lunch, the manager appointed us to separate areas to guard the area. I was sent to some deserted emokid94 corner where my only companion was the rack. The manager complained that we were crowding with friends too much which was like ?@?#!??!?#!? because the place was so small and the number of staffs overweighed that of the customers that dropped by, so crowding was inevitable. JJ and I quit the next morning. Vinnie and Huixun were sacked the next day, LOL.

Second job - "event promoter". Apparently, we were scammed because they lied that our job was to be an event promoter and they assured us a daily pay of $60-$100. We ended up selling donation tickets and the pay was commission-based. JJ and I were even separated to different areas - I was sent to Bugis, he was sent to Hougang. ): But I made new friends, Sibyl and Alvy. The name 'Sibyl' sounds so cute and pokemon-ish! I didn't manage to sell a single ticket after standing under the sun for four freaking hours and being ignored / shunned / stared at deftly by a million passersby. One ah neh even lectured me for being the fourth person to have asked him for donations that day. HELLO, LIKE I CAN HELP IT???? JJ and I quit on the spot.

Now, I'm officially jobless and that sucks. Come to think of it, I guess what Keith said made sense. I take things for granted too easily :/

What to do now? Back to being a nuaster. Nua nua nua nua nua nua.

My life is boring.

What evs.

PMS is just a bloody (literally) excuse for girls to lose their temper. I get angry because I am angry.

On a brighter note, my mom was peeping at what I was doing and I instinctively said, "So rude! Can you not do that?" Gosh, I wish Jux Keydings knew about this. I keep laughing at the thought of it. Meh, I miss my people :/

Brandon & Yanzhou's sweet 16th.

Had a hell lotta fun even though I played Jenga three-quarter of the time.
Happy birthday, Brandon & Yanzhou :)



Boys that like to camwhore.



The rolling middle fingers.



Miss this girl to the bits.



The Mahjong people.



The Chess people.



The Jenga People.



Pussies will always win the penises! ;)



Cake-cutting time!



And the Delbert.

You cunt can't say sorry, or I will punch your face :)