When I wake up, I'm afraid somebody else might take my place

Just an hour ago I thought I'd sleep with a smile for tonight. I had just ended a day with two very pleasant meet ups with two very pleasant people.

Seven years down the road and I've finally met Bene in person after conversing with each other through social media and meeting each other for the first time in the most embarrassing manner (maplesea). I thought it'd be awkward as hell but our conversations flowed so naturally. It's so nice and rare to not have awkward first meetings. I guess I'll be seeing more of him when I'm back next summer.

In the evening, Lummy finally took me out for dinner at Tony Roma's even though he was on a quarantine. He owed me one 'cause we made a bet on his 'A' level results and I won (he scored so much better than he thought he would). Sometimes, it's worthwhile to have faith in people ;-) As usual he would attempt to snap unglam shots of me while I'm caught off guard, and he always succeeds... He brings out the secondary school kid in me that I used to be, and I guess that's why he's the person I go to when I feel like I've lost myself. So glad you stood by me through all the good and ugly, Lummy :')

But now... now...

These negatives vibes are all kicking in. I've lost confidence in where I stand (exactly where do I stand?). Do I still have a place? That surely makes me sad, but even more so afraid - afraid that I might be quick to assume and afraid that I am selfish that way. I hope Nic's right, that this will be temporary. 'Cause I don't think I have much time left.

Hawker feast

Hawker feast with my favourite duo. (I really do like being behind the camera.)

Bert's 20th

Bert brought me out for a farewell lunch at Bedrock Bar & Grill and you would think it'd be all prim and proper but no, we basically threw our faces away trying to figure out the right dining etiquette, swallowing down the foie gras (which I'm still trying to appreciate but it just tastes so awfully organ-ish), and sipping on non-alcoholic wine. T'was funny. It's a pity I didn't manage to take any pictures though 'cause the lighting was so bad. Boo for tungsten lighting.

Then we met the rest of Jux Keydingz for our BBQ birthday celebration for Bert at Alita's crib. She's finally back from the States and boy am I glad that some things never change. Also, I just picked up my new portrait prime lens and brought my 60D out to play. Now that I think of it it was such an impulsive purchase (I should have saved up for a wide-angle instead, damn).

Sigh, this could be the last full-attendance reunion in a long time to come. I will miss this so much.

From the bed

Leaving is not difficult. Counting down to the day I do is. 

You guys are like my phone casing. It's always there to protect, so much so that it has integrated into my life like it's second nature. Now that I'm taking you off, I'm just a vulnerable, naked iPhone.

"Will you miss us?"

I think you already know the answer. You just don't know how much.

Once you go curly, you never go back

Unhealthy obsession with photo booth.

P.s. Yes I gave in to social norms and very unwillingly converted to a Macbook air from my trusty Sony S Series which is dying of old age
P.p.s. Chopped off my unkempt curls for newer curls in a darker shade. Now that I've had these curls for so long, I can't seem to go back to boring straight hair anymore.

#rusticwall

Saturday date with the hipster boy to eat as usual. We had ridiculously amazing waffles at Five & Dime (second time I've been there and it never disappoints) and we were supposed to catch a film after but of course having coffee and ice cream instead sounded like a better plan. Berty finally got his hands on the Nylon take-away coffee cup he's been raving about and I finally tried the critically acclaimed Creamier. But I think the best part of the day was our mini photoshoot. Days with Bert always comes with such Instagram-worthy photos.

Nothing makes me happier than eating and nobody quite makes me feel so comfortable in my own skin than a few like you. You are a gem, Berty. So glad I found you. (I know you'll see this! I think...)