To the end of time

Slightly refurbished my room over the long weekend. Hope the difference is visible enough :$ 

I love how my curtains are now carefully unfolded, but with a not-so-glam laundry clip. I sleep looking at the bokeh of street lights and wake up to the warmth of sunlight.

I've displayed a small bouquet of fake daisies, slotted in a vintage wooden rack, by the window sill as well. On the right of the wooden rack is a mini Christmas tree that Lummy gifted to me, and on the left is a huge-ass jar of straw hearts from someone, which I unduly deserve and which I don't know what to do with until today. Too guilty to throw it away yet I have no use for it... 

The stranger who took this picture for us really cannot... So unaligned.

Today is Taiming's birthday and we (Jux Keydings) surprised him yesterday evening at the airport. We were self-entertaining and all else was lively as usual.

What's your worth?

So I neglected my classmates for a short catch-up sesh with Zhuks, Chern, Clem and my best friend, Yanzhou today.

"Who are you to me?"

"A friend...?"

"Why are you a friend?"

"..."

"See, you can't even answer that."

I still can't forget that faithful night... It was a day after his birthday and I wanted to sneak in a birthday cake to surprise him while we were studying. At the counter, I was contemplating if I should order an additional scoop of vanilla i/c for him and I eventually did. The first thing he said when he saw the cake was not "oh my gosh thank you" but "I fucking hate vanilla". Hahaha. But this is my best friend for you :)

I've missed you guys.

Sunday Morning

Come and rest your bones with me.
I'm driving slow on Sunday morning.
And I never want to leave.

P.s. Leejay Abucayan is a living beatbox machine.
Best 'Sunday Morning' cover that I'd never get sick of, I'd say.

Thingsssssss to do

I want to live in a farm and milk the cows (must be the farmville influence urghhh ikr). I want to brick up piles of books around me, while I submerge into a world of make-believes or perhaps a time-travelling journey. I want to take my camera out for a walk to meet the sun and the clouds. I want to watch those baby daisies striving to crack through those concrete floors, unwavered by all obstacles. I want to eat lotsa food; cheese toboki, tom yum soup, sambal prawns (idk what's gotten into me), bbq stingray, flavoured pancakes, blueberry pies, xiao long bao, green curry prawns and phad thai, lemon meringue ice cream, indian rojak, duck and century egg congee and I could go on forever.

I need to get my hair done at the salon because I can't stand my ugly black roots any longer. I need to go for my semi-annual dental check-up. I need to apply for my basic theory test so I can get my freaking driving license. I need to speed up on reading my book before the workload from school grows too immense. I need to clean up my hurricane of a room. I need to prepare a birthday card and sketch a portrait for a certain someone's upcoming birthday.

Let's see how many things I get done by this week. Hopefully I'd clear at least the second half. No chance to complain about being bored for the time being 'cause life has gifted me such an elaborate list of things to do.

x

Chrome Hearty

I'm back from a sleepover at Esther's + advanced birthday surprise for Zongyang.

We first put up an act, in which Xx was supposedly giving him the cold shoulder for "something wrong he said". It ran smoothly without much hiccups, so much so that he fell deep for it. In the midst of his "apology" towards Xx, we appeared with a birthday cake and he was stunned and speechless. Gosh, I love that feeling of successfully surprising someone. That facial expression -- priceless.

Blind-folded him and led him to the entertainment room to watch the birthday video we recorded for him on the projector screen. My contribution for the birthday messages wasn't exactly a message... I lip-synced to Jay Chou's 彩虹 (inside joke) instead and I have lost all face. I even attempted to rap. -___- After the video was the "prize presentation" of the Chrome Hearts-inspired wristlets that Esther and I hand-made for the group. I love pampering my friends with small tokens like these ^^ (even though these small tokens don't come with small prices...)

Jumped in for a quick swim at the pool before we came up for some supper. Esther whipped up some tom yam soup for supper part 1 and we had the birthday cake for supper part 2. FATTY ME IS FAT :(

Slept in till 9ish before we left for our dreaded lessons.

Been so long since I've planned such a spectacular (buay paiseh abit) birthday surprise. ^^

Torpid saturday

Bed-hair, baggy shirt, filtered sunlight, earl grey tea, empty head;

This is the kind of morning - which technically isn't morning anymore - that I want to wake up to everyday.

Haven't gotten down to reading my book (and doing my tutorials yet).

DWMMLA 

- don't wanna move my lazy ass

That boy is trouble, trouble, so get out, get out.

If there's something that I absolutely can't tolerate, it'd be underrated songs:

I first heard Trouble when I was at the Hollister store in Shanghai and I just came across Get Out over the radio today. You guys really need to download this iPhone app called SoundHound. It's an ingenious app that recognizes songs for you. #nojoke

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Spent my day with Esther the monster at her crib, working on some witchcraft ;)

Sometimes I wonder if we're sisters of different mothers, 'cause she reads my mind so well like my head's transparent.

Witty company + chirpy songs = merry, merry day.

P/s: I saw my favourite stranger in school today!

Rid the hate, learn to love.

Sticks and stones may break my bones, and words will always hurt me. But no one - I repeat, no one - ever decides what kind of person I am. Call me materialistic, tell me I step on others to make my way up; It pricked me like a fucking thorn, when I thought you knew me best, but I hope you choke on the words you failed to swallow. It's unfair that he got away scot-free, while I get to be the scapegoat. What does that mean, then? That I never meant shit to you? But hah, nothing is ever fair, isn't it?

A letter and a gift -- as ironical as it may seem, these were what set us apart. I could have summed everything up into a "fuck you"", but I didn't. So fuck you, for wasting every ounce of courage I mustered for you. Fuck you, for judging the book even before flipping the cover. Fuck you, for not reciprocating the faith I had in you.

And you,

Go ahead and put your arms around what you call as your "bro"s, because that's all you're good at doing, and they're all you've got anyway. It only amuses me to see you cower behind them, using them as your shields.

This time, don't expect me to soften up and give in again.
Watch me return, sturdier and all bricked up.

Dear wearybones,

Memories are the blood to your vessels; they're the heart to your beat.
Even if I was titanium, there'd always be this fear that haunts me more than anything else (besides dying alone), and that's losing my memory.

This is nothing but an appreciation post for my babyblog. You've been an amazing companion :-)

I could literally die without you.

P/s: New school term starts tomorrow. I can so wait.

Hawkz fudz

Today was meant to be my Old Airport Road date with the OIP group, but we travelled all the way down there just to find out that it's down for renovation. Chao tu tu... :( So we were up for Plan B at the Marine Parade Food Centre. Seemed like it was a blessing in disguise because the food was sooooooo fulfilling. The feast totalled up to $10+ per person, yikessss. We r z hawker food warriorz.

What did the dog say to the tree?

Belated birthday surprise from Jux Keydings at Video World after Puggol nasi lemak for dinner.

Every year, without fail :')

Can't believe that Bali dream is actually happening. It's set; 16th to 20th December marks our Bali trip. I'd pinch myself for a reality check but I doubt there'd be a need for that, when the screenshot of the confirmed booking is in my very own phone. This. Is. Happening.

To let you in on a sneak peak of our planned schedule:

Last day in Bali - Shit in the pool.

Who run the world?! TEAM BA-FUCKING-LI.

Twisties in the Jaccuzi kinda day

Just the pool, Twisties in the jacuzzi, banana sponge cake from Japan, girlfriends, sunsets and silhouettes, more friends, and salmon fillet.

Press on, lean in.

Last few moments in Shanghai:

I'm back in the lion city; back in warmth (literally).

Been working on a short clip for my OIP group and uploading all the accumulated pictures on Facebook. Running through the past 5 weeks in my head all over again. It's been such a breathtaking journey :')

But I love the feeling of embracing my very own bed once again, the feeling of hugging my very huggable mom, the feeling of savouring Singaporean food, the feeling of the East Coast Park breeze blowing through my hair.

I'm Home.

I'm coming home.

I'm back from QPL... again.

And of course, I'm back with a bag of loots... again.

QPL is like Shanghai's Bugis and I can't ever get sick of that place.

Last few moments of embracing this (smelly) bed. 

Last batch of loots.

Today marks the last day for us in Shanghai. I don't want to imagine feeling terribly empty when I'm back in Singapore, even though I really miss my family and friends back there.

Schedule for the day:
11:00 - QPL
15:00 - Free and easy
19:00 - Dinner
22:00 - Karaoke overnight
03:00 - Last minute packing
04:00 - Check out :(

Dr. Evil

"Learn to be heartless; you'd go further in life."

Pardon me, but wanting to go further in life is not a form of redemption for being heartless. Likewise, fearing to lose out is not an excuse to be selfish.

I cannot tolerate people who compromise on their moral values and rights, just for the sake of an alphabet or a number.

This society I live in is a far cry from what I define as "humane".

18th in Shanghai.

I'm happy; So, so, so, so happy.

In fact, I'm beyond happy.

As cliche as this may sound, I don't know what I did to have such thoughtful companions :')

Saying that I'm touched by your actions would be an understatement. I'm sincerely thankful for you guys and this could be the best form of birthday present ever.

Because life is not a straight line.

We're almost halfway through the last week in Shanghai now and I've finally downloaded my permanent VPN, which doesn't need to be reloaded every 2 minutes, thus I can actually type up till here right now. And of course, I can finally upload pictures! To spare you from the massive spam of pictures by the time I get back to Singapore, I'd just post up some of what I've got so far.

For the weight I've gained:

For the cheap loots I've scored:

For the people I miss:

& most importantly, for the people who eventually matter most to me:

I'd embrace the ups and downs of life, because life is not a straight line, and it never will be :-)