What goes around comes around.

Dejected, disappointed, demoralized :(

Just when I decided to make it up to my family by spending time with them, they don't have time to spend with me. Seems like I'mma be one more lonely girl this year.

Le sigh.

And I don't want the world to see me,

My swollen, bruised cheeks (due to the wisdom tooth extraction surgery) have been depriving me of facing the world lately. It's been so suffocating to have been cooped up within four walls for hours, what more days, so I finally plucked up the courage to escape from my shithole last Tuesday. Made an impromptu trip down to town to meet Trisha, Ericia and Auggie to chill out. Toured around FEP after lunch-ner at a small, cozy Thai cafe and I had to be Auggie's bro for the day 'cause he felt lonely being the sole man. Heh, *fistbump*. Left after 2h or so and headed on to 313 for a short walk before we ended the night with dessert and HTHT at Coldstone. It was my virgin visit there. Yes lah yes lah, I know I very mountain tortoise. But the ice cream not very great leh. Scoopz or B&J's over any other ice cream anytime~

On a side, but very important note... EVERYONE PLEASE PAY ATTENTION! I'd like to make an announcement *ahem cough ahem* /clearsthroat. Whether male, female, married, single, tall, short, fat or skinny, I want every single person in this entire universe to know how much I love Lim Yan Zhou. Even if it risks me being punched in the eye, I would very much like to hug him tight and say thank you :') And being an asshole that I already am, I will keep you guys in suspense and not say the reason why, teehee.

It's half past nine in the morning right now and I just returned from the dental clinic. Doc said my condition's looking fine and I can go back to my normal diet in a few more days, YAY!!!!!!! You have no idea how deprived I am of good food.

Approximately a week and a day more to the Bintan trip with #TB28! :)

Birthday luck.

Say whuuuuuut? Won the Ivorypastel lucky draw for twice in a row.

Really some birthday luck I've got there.

Should I join #TB28 at Marina Barrage tmr as I painfully watch them eat good food while I sit in one corner, being unable to, 'cause I can't chew with two gaping holes in my gums, OR........ go for work and earn myself 57 bucks?

Honestly, what I really wanna do is just to meet the guys for dinner...

8 days

I tend to act like I'm not eggcited for my birthday at all or pretend I forgot about it to make it seem insignificant to me, but this year, I keep thinking about the day. It's even coloured rainbow on my planner, lol. This time, it's gonna be a little different, 'cause for one, it isn't during the exam period. Yes, for all my life, my birthday has always been spent mugging, which sucks balls, really. And I've made up my mind that I shall spend my birthday with my family this year, including my gramps, for dinner at Hill Man Restaurant. Can't wait to see my popo and gong gong, I miss them so, so much. Since the start of the year, it's been my resolution to master the art of family > friends and I can proudly say that I'm improving bit by bit. Used to put my friends before my family which caused a lot of conflicts and misunderstandings between my family and I. From now on, I'm making it up to 'em. Guess this is the part of growing up when I sort my priorities right :)

Lost my wisdom.... tooths.

Hi I lost two wisdom tooths today and it hurts like hell.

Felt like I was trapped in this dark, cold dungeon with the flickering lights shining on my crinkled face. Surrounding were sinister sounds of rattling chains and clinking tools. I was under demonstration, so I had 10 other trainee dentists surrounding me to observe the surgery. Felt as though they were mad scientists, trying out their insane experiments on their guinea pig, which is me btw. Lol jk. The lights were perfectly fine and they placed me in a clean, white surgery room. No rattling chains nor clinking tools either, lol. They put on headphones for me that played soothing music, but it wasn't loud enough to overlap the drilling sounds. Yes, they effing used a driller like they were renovating my entire mouth.

Three-quarters way through, I struggled and pulled back a little 'cause I couldn't bear the pain. Started bawling my eyes out and panting really heavily so they had to calm me down. I thought I was gonna die :'(

There are four parts 'cause they drilled each tooth into half first before pulling 'em out.

And the amount of pills I've to take.

That was the most painful experience of my life. Walked into the dental clinic like a boss and walked out like a pussy.

Embracing for an entire week of recovery misery :'(

Mexibadass

Back from TCP camp! Xx warned me that I'd grow fat at TCP camp and truly, I did. Think buffet for almost every meal (I can't forget the soy sauce cod fish and cereal chicken), tau huay and donuts for supper and a never-ending supply for tidbits and hot drinks at the magic pantry. *sucks in tummy guiltily*

Was in team Mexico and our mentor was this Mexican chick, Marian. She's so pretty and bubbly and I love her accent :) Apparently, Mexico has lotsa cactuses, so... I MUST GO THERE ONE DAY. That'll prolly be my paradise even though I take the risk of being pricked with every movement I make.

Couldn't bear to leave on the last day of camp as we all gathered in a circle for our last group gathering. Sher Hong and Jun Wen were in tears already. We couldn't even-

Gonna miss team Mexico :'(

Rushed home to unpack my stuff and take a bath before I headed out of the house again for a one-night stay at the Superbadass chalet/camp. By the time I reached there, all I could attend to was the prize-giving ceremony and Darren went like, "K, so this is the last part of the Superbadass chalet. I hope you guys enjoyed yourself. Wake up by 8.30am tomorrow because we have to check out. Goodnight." Like a sian only. Reach there then break camp already -.-"

Gathered in a Circle of Thrust in the wee hours of the night for an educational sex talk with our sexcyclopedia, Ros. I could record this conversation and replay it over and over again 'cause it's that hilarious, especially with all of Imran's stupid comments and random, weird noises. Napped for an hour or so then we all cabbed home.

Crashed immediately after I arrived home and woke up only at 3pm and here I am now, with my hair wrapped in my towel, turban style, awaiting for dinner time to meet the guys for ban mian. Life is good :)

#TB28's Dress-up Party (Fail)

Trisha, Ericia, Darren and I met at AMK Hub first for lunch while waiting for the rest to arrive. Lesson learnt: I will never top-up to change my drink into a caramel frappe for a Mac's meal ever again because it doesn't go well with the food at all.

Me and Darren dressing up as Darren and Devin respectively.

My dress-up was kinda fail though I intentionally wore a biker jacket, badass necklace and a ring to create the "Darren" image.

Jiaxuan and Auggie dressing up as Auggie and Trisha respectively.

Auggie's secret weapon, the Triangle necklace.

Erwin dressing up as Ivan (the straw hat and the geeky specs).

Genevieve and Ericia; Ericia dressing up as Genevieve.

Shien and Xinxian; Xinxian dressing up as Shien.

Aloy and Auggie; Aloy dressing up as me (damn fail -.-).

The wombat with the scent of Devin's underwear.

Froggycia.

Steamboat for dinner.

And Trisha's cupcakes for dessert.

Afterwhich, we settled down for in Auggie's room for some HTHT. I can't believe we HTHT-ed till past 4am+. We truly had a lot of shit to talk about, from ideal future > lingerie brand > facts about self > army, etc. Ericia started creeping us out by distributing her fear to everyone else like free flow buffet which made us all hide underneath the blankets separately on two single-sized beds. Crashed at around 5am after Devin and Jiaxuan finally stopped shooting Nerf bullets at me and after Darren quit pulling my leg (literally) and woke up to everyone panicking to the collection of their results.

Emo-ed at a corner for a little while before we all headed out to grab some prata for breakfast, which really sucked btw. Never ever eat at The Prata House. Pricey + low food quality.

Continued our HTHT until 1pm (told you we had lotsa shit to talk about) before we all retreated home. I miss them all already :-)

Had faith in me.

Y'know that deep abyss of shock and disappointment that you fall into at that second when you realize how much you've destroyed your future with your very own bare hands? You'd seen this coming, so you'd geared yourself up to embrace the impact so bravely, yet when it comes charging at you like a merciless typhoon, your courage magically disappears within a snap of a finger and everything seems to fall apart. My heart ached like a bitch when I recited those numbers in remorse, yet all she said was, "it's okay". It's okay? It's okay? It's not okay, at least not to me. It's bad. Just so, so bad.

I tried. I did.

A day off.

Took a break off work at last. I don't know if working three consecutive days is insane or if it's my stamina, but hell does it tire me out. Refused to leave my bed until slightly after noon today and even after I did, my body found its way back to my bed again.

My mom's being an emo nemo teamo supremo elmo these days. Just a couple of days back at the dental clinic, she told me, out of the blue, "If I turn into a vegetable or go into a long coma one day, cut off my support line 'cause at least that'll save you a sum of money." A resident in my block passed away recently, with his funeral held at the void deck, and she commented, "Next time, for my funeral, I don't want any joss sticks. Just peaceful, Buddhist hymns would do." Idk why she keeps speaking of her death but I hate it, a lot. I'd trade 10 years of my life for hers :(

On a brighter note, I can't believe I won the Ivorypastel lucky draw. Honestly didn't see that coming, considering I'm forever down on my luck.

One of those is gonna be mine! Yippeee!!

Cuffs & cogs.

Guess who received her ASOS parcel today? ^^

50 Confessions.

1. My mom. No, really.

2. Potentially outgoing if you know me, but shy towards strangers.

3. #TB28. Stoked for the dress-up party at Auggie's crib on the 15th!

4. I am, am I?

5. Yes, but I've given up again.

6. He would.

7. Doubt so, but I could really use somebody.

8. No one in particular.

9. Yes and no, depending on the atmosphere.

10. I can't quite recall.

11. "I asked mah onli haha . U ask more ppl like joelle and fel oso lehs ! How to get ticks ?!" From Brandon, hinting to me to organize an outing to watch the F1 race.

12. Cruel at first look, but behind every abortion lies a reason. If the mother lacks the capability to raise the child and the child would be bound to go through hardship or even barely lives, I'd rather the child not enter the world at all.

13. No, not really. I hate strangers brushing across my arms.

14. To a substantial extent, yes.

15. So far, it was the night spent together with Fel and Joelle at Orchard Central.
16. No.
17. Yes. Joelle is from Mars, no doubt about that.
18. No. We belong in different worlds.
19. Bubble baths are the way to go. Think bubble foam, bath tub and rubber duckies. Fun, fun, fun!
20. I'm neutral. They don't even talk to me.
21. Neglection, procrastination, excessive sleeping, poor punctuality, ignorance and it goes on. They're listless.
22. Harbin, Maldives, Bali, Italy, Venice, UK and anywhere northern where I can view the Northern Lights.
23. Not really. In fact, I think I give my trust wholly to almost everyone I know.
24. Brushing my teeth.
25. My fats.
26. Roll in bed, for like half an hour at least.
27. Neither. I like how tanned I am :)
28. My bbygs, Jux Keydingz, #TB28, the boys and The Family.
29. No..?
30. Yes, I'd love to. And I want to have kids. Preferably a baby boy before a baby girl :)
31. Definitely.
32. I don't even want to have a threesome. That disgusts me.
33. xzssadszhb (Wth ultimate fail, but can't blame me, I've got shallow keys)
34. Not really..
35. Without TV. I can't live without music.
36. Yes.
37. I don't say a thing. I do the awkward turtle or make a crow's caw.
38. Yes. Label me with "narrow-minded", but I would only date a man of my age or older. Men's maturity generally develops slower than women's, thus dating younger men might result in a conflict of frequency in thinking. Therefore, age matters in a relationship.
39. Topshop, Forever21, New Look, Cotton On, etc., but I usually just window-shop because I purchase my stuff mostly from online stores instead.
40. Head on to University. What choice do I have?
41. No, not everyone does.
42. Either it means "Can't you see that I'm mentally slitting my wrist and crying my heart out inside?" or "In the process of chilling down now so don't provoke me further or I'll fuck you up". But mostly, it just means "leave me alone".
43. Certain ones. If you're cute, that just goes without saying ^^

44. Outer space. I could take a trip down to the bottom of the ocean anytime in future when I further my diving skills ;)

45. I already have one and she's my sister.

46. About the significance of my presence. About being forgotten. About what people think of me.

47. "You're fat." I know I am, but I'd appreciate it if you don't say it in my face.

48. Nothing in particular. Just those cliche sweet nothings you hear in romance films.

49. No. I did something, but the possibility of him knowing I did hits almost zero. Fate's not on my side this time.

50. French, LOL. But I'm just too lazy like that.

A day wasted.

Today, Fel and I (and partially Joelle) indulged in the simplest form of enjoyment. Reached late and found them both at the hawker centre savouring tau huay, with Joelle ranting on and on about how her feelings got cheated 'cause all these while she thought tau huay was cold but she was served a hot one. And then her bimbo moments started when she told us that tau suan was made of corn. *facepalm* x 1219847892.

Started off with a wasted trip to Oakham Market only to find the shop closed for the day. Koped air-con at the cafe that sells classy pastries before we left the place for elsewhere. Mugger Yeo had to leave us to mug, leaving Fel and I to wander around on our own for the rest of the day.

Decided to visit the thrift store at Woodleigh. Fel walked into a wall while alighting the bus HAHAH. The store looked ancient; its air thick with dust, choking our throats. Found a pair of chained wedges which costs only $30 and it fit Fel perfectly. Didn't have enough cash on hand to buy it though, so we hid it behind a stack of diving flippers to make sure no one else can find it. Teehee.

Wanted to head on to VivoCity to visit our favourite stores but we cancelled that out and decided for City Plaza instead. Fel's screws went a little loose on the mrt as she hooked up with 3 self-proclaimed boyfriends: Mr. Steel Pole, Mr. Glass Panel and Mr. Plastic Wall.

Parkway Parade was our last destination. Our legs were sore from all the walking so we heaved a sigh of relief after we finally reached the bus stop but jumped up right after 2 seconds in sync 'cause the seat was burning hot. You should've seen our synchronized movement, it looked as though it's rehearsed. Ended up reading magazines at Borders while dozing off concurrently in the comfy environment. Made two rounds around Marks & Spencer squealing and spazzing over food. I will marry any man who feeds me with lots of good food in future ^^

K that's about it.

Everytime I look for you, the sun goes down.

Sigh, a journey wasted.

Seems like it flew away.

Last Saturday Night.

These two girls never fail to make my day, afternoon or night. It's been long since I've laughed so heartily. Friends like them aren't easy to find, so I'm gonna cherish 'em. Never, ever letting 'em go.

Pictures from last Saturday night:

Snapped shots with these POTC characters who were moving around promoting HTC at Ion.

Flowery head band ^^

Fel's pretty bracelet.

The pursed lips HAHAHA ;)

The supposed tongue-touch-teeth even though only I ended up doing it -.-

The wink.

The look-down-and-smile.

The lip-biting.

Our (quite fail) attempt to imitate Mel's profile pic.

Look at the annoying girl at the back trying to ruin Fel's solo pic HAHAH -.-

See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil.

1-9!

Laughed till our stomachs ached.

Happy with my new loot from Editor's Market ^^