(Still) stuck in the moment.

I feel the need to study already.

Note: The need, not the urge.

But here I am anyway, with a cup of tea from this morning which magically appeared in the refrigerator, in front of my laptop and textbook, making BLaw notes on foolscap paper. Feels like secondary school all over again.

I should quit whining about the complexity of BLaw. That just makes me tenfold more uninterested in the module. I love Blaw, BLaw is dope, BLaw is chicken feet, BLaw is the best module ever.... Ah, who am I kidding? Gotta feeling that this scenerio is gonna repeat for Microecons. Mehhhh. /:

My bbygs are so beautiful. I could fall in love with them over and over again.

And see my bbyb in the middle there? He's the coolest bloke in town.

Sleepy as fuck but I don't wanna sleep. What's new?

I've got the magic, magic, magic~

Lectures have been hell these three days 'cause I never get to sit with my classmates and I'll end up at the back of the lecture theater wallowing in self-pity and loneliness. Today, I sat beside Zhuks among his classmates once again. His classmates are almost like my friends already lol.

Could catch no balls during BLaw yesterday 'cause there's so many things to memorize at one go. Urghhhh. What touched me was when Yanzhou said, "Sarah, you need help or not? You so stupid, I help you lah." Even though he called me stupid, his offer to help is the best thing that ever happened to me today.

Love 'em both! ♥

Lunched with TB28's girls today and we managed to overcome the war at Makan Place. Choping nine seats ain't no easy thing to do. Sense of achievement much. ^^v

Poly drains up all my energy. And money. And I still can't get over the fact that I scored a freakin' 69/100 for the Plagiarism test. What the fuck is wrong with me?

Nobody said it was easy.

First day of school was kinda cool. Wandered alone around like a lost kid in search of LT28 and asked three random strangers for directions in total. Bumped into Zhuks at the entrance so he offered me a seat beside him during the lecture. First PoA lecture only and Zhuks and I couldn't comprehend part of what the lecturer taught already, but thank god for Yanzhou.

Makan Place and Munch are like battlefields at lunch time. It's almost impossible to get a seat, what more queue up for food. The queue itself is madness. It goes as long as the snake in the game, Snake, at level 20. I can't believe we had to resort to sandwiches (which costs $2.20 per packet for your info) and OCK for lunch. WE CAME ALL THE WAY HERE TO STARVE?!?

K but on a brighter note, dinner was the sex :) Celebrated Ryan's birthday at New York New York and ordered four portions of the ginourmous burgers. It certainly made up for the proper lunch we were deprived of.

Happy birthday, mahmah.

(p/s: The cap he's wearing was my birthday gift for him ^^v)

I fuckin' love AA. Reckless & Relentless is eargasmic.

Wish I could shield you from the thunderstorm, but I'm but a holey, tattered umbrella.

Smile though your heart is aching.

Been hanging out at town during the weekends. Just did on Good Friday with Amsyar, Yiyun and Keith to have lunch at Wendy's and again on Saturday to shop for birthday presents and school clothes and I taught Adam the art of knowing your way around town. When walking past Takashimaya, we overheard an ang moh remarking, "You know you're in Asia when you're tall." Burrrrn~ But it's true.

Topshop lootz ^^

Adam accompanied me throughout as I circled around Topshop and he was tolerant enough to tell me to take my time when I stressed over my fickle-mindedness. ♥ Literally jumped for joy when I found a stranger who had one item to purchase which topped up my bill to $150 for me to sign up for the Topshop membership. Heheh, what a hairpeegurl94@hotmail.com I am.

Strangers, again. Here's to a fresh start, here's goodbye to the hurdles we've crossed.

So which point of this are we at now?

I'm back.

Hmmmm... so where shall I start? Been sorting things out in my head these past ten days and a lot has happened. Orientation lasted from Monday to Thursday. Ryan and I were appointed to group Rock 'N Roll 4 together and I'm so thankful for his company or I'd have seriously died of boredom at certain points of time.

Day 1: Learning cheers and soaking in the immense heat.

Day 2: Games day!

Day 3: Performance day + Award ceremony + Briefing on courses.

Day 4: Meet-your-advisor Session + Glam Night

I'd love to upload a couple of photos but they've yet to be put up on fb. My OGLs and OG are a bunch of lovely people :)

Glam Night was the bombzxzxzx. The five hours worth of aimless waiting paid off, although Zhuks and Chern were annoying the shit outta me with their repetitive, random cheers which made no sense. Badai crashed the party and his heart officially belongs to NP now. ♥

So not prepared to attend lessons on Monday.

Stolen.

Currently at Gerald's crib, comfortably placed in his sofa with his Mac on my lap. Just had cup noodle for supper to pacify our hunger pangs and intended to watch Gossip Girl together but he crashed right after farting for four times straight. So much for "I survive on little sleep."

Amidst all these uncertainties, disappearing sure sounds like a solution to me. Seems like I've stumbled upon the wretched reptile in the game of Snakes & Ladders again. Back at square one, baby; Back at square fucking one.

I'm willing my closing eyes to stay open even though the sofa and the pillows are being such slutty temptresses. Gotta catch a match to watch my girl guard her goalpost at MJC later this evening, so I'm not risking a possibly never-ending shut-eye.

Might or might not continue the 30 Day Challenge. Now that school's commencing next Monday, I'd prefer blogging about my day than merely pointless blogging. What more, this isn't getting me anywhere after all. I don't know what will. Cheers to being trapped in this inescapable hole.

Until then.

Silver still sparkles.

I fee like a horrible senior. Wait, I take that back; I am a horrible senior.

For the past few months, I've never returned to TK with an intention to visit the band. Even if the intention was there, the courage never was. Teaching and guiding juniors used to be a responsibility and you could say it somewhat still is, but to me, it's a fear, 'cause I'm not cut out to lead. Despite knowing how sucky it feels to have no seniors visiting at all while witnessing other sections having seniors visiting them almost every practice, I made them feel what I felt. I wasn't even there to watch them shine on the big day itself. For that, I'm downright guilty and sorry.

Chins up, Clts; especially Nadia, Nifail, Marc, Ryan, Esther, Daveena, Chelsea, Enoch and even more especially you, Yanjie. Proud of/ love/ miss every single one of you.

I love you, TK Band. Deep down inside, I really still do. Anoneh pakuke.

& you, chin up. You don't know your worth, but I do. We do.

Day 20 - Do you wear glasses? If so, what are they for? & Day 21 - Your favourite subject to study.

I used to wear glasses 'cause I have 'lazy' eyes whereby one eye has a higher degree than the other. My condition was pretty mild though, with both sides having less than hundred degrees. But I checked my eye at a spectacles shop at Katong the other day when Ryan was picking his new pair of glasses and the eye specialist said my (omg my stomach just roared as loud as thunder as I type this) condition improved and that I could live without my glasses, so yay me!

My favourite subject to study is Maths. No doubt 'bout that. I don't even count it as studying. Everyone else is like "maths can suck my dick" but I'm like "I love sucking Math's dick!" No, I'm kidding about the dicks but yeah, you get my point.

Needs > Wants

This was probably the most organized and unusual shopping trip we've planned 'cause we only headed to specific places to get our specific needs first before "just taking a look" here and there and ending up splurging on unnecessary wants. Throughout the entire day, we kept chanting to ourselves, "needs over wants, needs over wants, needs over wants" and it worked ok! The only norm was that Felicia burnt a bigger hole in her wallet than I did in mine.

Finally got my pair of Vans after two months of swearing to myself that I'd get it soon and I love it velli velli much 'cause the design is so cute ^^ Let's see what else I bought..

• Blue friendship band from X-craft
• Hearts over knee tights from Topshop which was the last piece in store!!
• Fuckin' gorgeous dream catcher necklace with crow feathers

Fel got so mad and annoyed when she found out that the store was selling those large dream catchers at $24 maximum when she bought hers at $95 just last week. That's gonna be our secret thrift store from now on.

Ok I need to go back to town again next week to get my rectangle bag + this $49 black bag if I eventually bear to + a new foxtail (BECAUSE ZHUKANG TORE MINE INTO PIECES) if I have the spare cash. Still wanna get lotsa stuff from Topshop and Forever21 too. The knee high socks at Topshop are irresistibly adorable :(

Day 19 - The initials of your crush(es).

There's FLWQ, JYXJ, NJY, SGJY, BTZY, ADUD, STMK, CJJ, BLWK, SKY, JQ, JCYX, BEP, ITE, CBD, ECP, KIE, CCB, etc. Too many to be mentioned. Muax muax love them all :-*



You're so beautiful, but that's not why I love you. And I'm not sure you know, that the reason I love you is you; Being you, just you. Yeah the reason I love you is all that we've been through. And that's why I love you.

Even though we didn't make it through. I am always here for you. You.

Day 18 - Do you drink soda more often than milk?

Without doubt, yes. That probably explains why I'm so vertically challenged. I wish I was 10cm taller...

In my younger days, I used to be the tallest in class for four years straight. Then I degraded to second tallest, and then to fourth tallest, and now, the shortest. I don't think I'd ever grow taller again, ever. I've been here 152cm above the ground for like what? Five years? Been consoling myself that taller people will get struck by lightning first and that I'd have a wider choice of boyfriends to scout for 'cause I can have both a short or a tall boyfriend. If I could turn back time, I'd feed myself with cartons of milk everyday and have milk baths (LOL no link but whatever), but life goes on.. (:

Gonna spend my entire afternoon with Fel tomorrow in search of our needs (and wants) in town. School shoes, school bag, school idk-what-else and the list goes on.

I don't want this moment to ever end.

All I wanna do is lean on you for awhile -or a little longer- with my eyes closed, until I remember they can be opened.

I'll take whatever I can take for as long as I have. And well, wait.

Day 17 - Your thoughts on Ugg boots.

Ugg boots are absolutely adorable and comfy to snug your feet into. I'd get a pair in maroon/dusty pink if I could but I'd be deemed as mental if I were to wear these down Orchard. Hate how there's no winter in Singapore :(

Heading outta the house in a bit to get some air and to look for my new school shoes. Signing off. xx

Day 16 - Your favourite Disney Princess movie.

A thing for red heads. ♥

This reminds me, she's wearing a C-cup.

The less you give a fuck, the happier you will be.

I'd very much like to not give a fuck.

Oh how do I know, if i should stay or just go? The bottom line is this way that I'll never know.

Stay with me.

Day 15 - Tell us your favourite junk food.

Lol, speak about coincidence. The Formspring question of the day is about my favourite snack too.

This. Is. The. Sex.

I could really use some chips right now, chips right now, chips right now~ A hungry man is an angry man, as Jannah always says. Hahha, but no, I'm not angry. Just fuckin' hungry. Waiting to meet the gang at Ban Mian for dinner in half an hour or so.

Day 14 - Do you have siblings? Talk about them, or talk about what it's like to be an only child.

I have two younger sisters.

The older one's Priscilla. I can't stand how messy, dirty and disorganised she is. Her foiled tissue papers are scattered all over the place, her freshly shipped Forever21 plaid shirt is chucked aside beside the printer and basically, she leaves her junk at every corner of this apartment. Really buay tahan, but other than that, I pretty much enjoy her company. She'd always accompany me wherever I went, even if it were just to be short trip to Parkway to grab a couple of necessities. For all my life, we've been sleeping in the same room every night and I'd feel empty whenever she stays over at her friend's place or a chalet (actually I don't, 'cause I sleep like a pig so it doesn't really matter that much HAHAH.) She doesn't bother to dress up nor is she vain, but she's naturally quite a babe, or in Brandon's terms, bangable. Hahahah, no, I'm kidding. Fuck off from her, all you lechers out there.

And yes, she's taller than me. Unasked question answered.

The youngest would be Vanessa. She's semi-blonde (literally) but in contrary to that, she has a high IQ. I'd say she's the most special one among us three.

"Do you love mommy or daddy more?"

"I love both equally!"

"Then which jiejie do you love more?"

"Both equally too!"

That'd be her answer, at the age of five. Priscilla and I would always choose Mommy over Daddy, and if I were her, I'd probably choose a sister over the other. Although she gets really annoying at times and it'll get me so tempted to paste a long strip of masking tape over her mouth, she's quite a happy pill. The slightest things she does can change your mood drastically.

Disturbing her is quite addictive, 'cause she forgives so easily. I'd always hide behind the bathroom door while she's engrossed in her own quiet bath and singing k-pop/chinese songs, then I'll go "BOO!" really loudly and she'll get all startled and her reaction really amuses me. Come to think of it, it's quite a mean thing to do but.... oh well :D

I used to bully both of 'em a lot in my younger days. Makes me kinda guilty up till now, so I'm always trying to find ways to make it up.

#coolfact: Every once we moved house, a baby would be born.

Day 13 - Your thoughts or opinions about Mean Girls.

Favourite old skool film next to A Cinderella Story and White Chicks. Classic storyline of a high school teenage girl, but classics are always the best. Lindsay Lohan is gorgeous especially when she smiles.

"You okay?"

Lol, can I say no? It fucking hurts.

Seems like I've been the fool again, even though April Fools' was two days ago.

And in the end we're turning on and off again

there's a look in your eye

And it's screaming goodbye

I'd hate to watch you me cry

Hooked On Flea @ Home Club

I'M BAAAAAAAACK! from Hooked On Flea @ Home Club.

Shared a booth with Renee my twinnie. We've both experienced our virgin flea market booth failing terribly, but this time, it wasn't as bad as we expected it to be, other than the fact that our indestructible, or so I thought, clothes rack destructed a couple of times and we were getting kinda annoyed having to pick up and rearrange the clothes over and over again. Faustina, Keith, Ryan, Badai (HE FINALLY APPEARED AFTER A GAZILLION YEARS OF MIA-ING!!!!) dropped by halfway through. Felicia Koay and Cherie stayed with us for two hours or so. Jiaying and Kunjie visited us at the last hour. (Jiaying dyed her hair red!)

Pops offered to drive me to Home Club this morning but the car tyre punctured on the highway so he dropped me off to flag a cab instead while he sent the car for repair. I'm such a lucky girl today. First, the cab driver helped to move my luggage around and directed me on how to walk to Home Club from Clarke Quay MRT station patiently. Secondly, at the security guard post at The Riverwalk, the security guard helped to carry my luggage down the flight of stairs. Thirdly, there was another flight of stairs that leaded to Home Club and I was struggling to drag it up the staircase so this by-stander helped me out once again. Fourthly, after the flea market ended, Kunjie was there to be my maid for the night. So after all, my luggage wasn't much of a burden at all.

Brought a sibei dua luggage + bagpack there and came back with my sibei dua luggage + bagpack + 2 bags of shoes and clothes + clothes rack, and I thought I sold a lot (which I did). Idk how the heck this could happen.

Feel like sharing a booth again soon. :B

Day 12 - Your thoughts or opinions about Harry Potter.

Not a fan, but I'd always catch it in the cinemas.

I love to see how they've grown :)

I love Lord Voldemort too; Twitter version. Hahah.

P/s: Is my blog font better now?