The last hour

(Cr: Hweetyng)

Off-duty from school work on a Wednesday evening with Bala and Hweetyng in the east, where we indulged in bbq pulled pork belly fries topped with loads of parmigiano and cheddar from Ninethirty by Awfully Chocolate. Also, I am through with the recently produced horror films. Devil's Due was nothing but a shitty 1.5-hour worth of headache with zero shock factor and the worst ending ever.

But on a brighter note, here's to more dates in the east!

Pb

Night out at Starbucks with probably the most annoying person in the world

Right back at it again

Do you ever get this feeling when you're so physically exhausted from the lack of sleep and you're so comfortably sprawled across your bed yet your eyes refuse to shut, and all you want is someone to talk to? Well, not exactly someone to talk to. Just, someone to lay beside you and appreciate the silence of the night with you. And you realise that the only appropriate candidate for that is about to tuck in, so you casually brush off the idea of that much needed companionship. Then you slump back into your armchair, and stare back at the rectangle screen. That rectangle screen. In minutes, you have about a dozen tabs open and you don't even remember why you kept some open in the first place. You eventually force yourself to sleep. Wake up the next morning. Go to school. Have lunch. Attend tutorials. Come back home. Take a shower. Dinner. Rectangle screen. Then you find yourself lying on the bed, like a deja vu, yearning for that same darn companionship again.

A ship is safe in harbor, but that's not what ships are for.

If you don't already know, yes I received my first university offer from University of Exeter just yesterday. No, I have not accepted it nor will I be doing so until I've received a reply from the other universities and tried for local Us. I feel a need to do this q&a post because honestly, the last thing I need right now is explaining to yet another "why not local U?!" talk.

P.s. This entire situation occured at 2.48am (of all times) when I was comfortably tucked in bed under my quilt and the process after of trying to fall back asleep while containing that much of excitement in me was a torment. I had indian cuisine with Nic the next day to celebrate our first university offer!

But anyway, back to topic.

Q: Why not local U?

A: My grades. They're not bad, but they're not good enough. I barely even meet the minimum cut. Moreover, I'm not too keen with continuing with business because that's the only thing I can/want to do in a local U.

Q: How about SIM/ Kaplan/ other private institutes?

A: If I'm going to pay for the same amount locally, then why not abroad? Yes, the accommodation costs and living expenses make a vast difference but taking the leap and experiencing a broader perspective of life feels so much more meaningful to me.

Q: Isn't it going to cost you a bomb? Are you sure you're okay with living alone in the UK?

A: I know, I know; It's gonna cost me a dozen trips to Japan, a Cadillac and 10,000 Krispy Kreme donuts. No, do not do the math because I did not. But really, I look at it as an education investment. Don't get me wrong though, I'll definitely owe it all to my momma and pops. And I know, I know; You also probably think I'd be outcasted from racism, drugged in a club or shot in the head with a bullet there, but really? Really? I can't emphasise more on the concept of the mean world syndrome. There are dangers everywhere, you just gotta know how to avoid it. 

Q: Your parents allow ah?

A: Contrary to popular belief, my mom was the one who pushed me to give it a shot. I just want to take this chance to say what a supportive mom she's been since forever. She knew I loved art as a kid, so she asked if I wanted to be sent to an art school when I was p6. I was afraid, so I said no. She knew I grew to be able to do art, so she asked if I wanted to try out an art degree in poly. I was afraid, so I said no. Now, she knows I've finally found something I love (that's still sooooooomewhat related to art to me) and she knows I yearn to pursue it abroad. But she didn't ask me anything this time. She said, "go".

So there, a slice of my thoughts.

Decisions

I did it. I forked out £23 applying for universities that are at least 6000 miles away from home. And I'm not afraid that my heart will waver (should I receive an offer). I'm afraid it won't.

Tens

One day I will look back at my tertiary school life and my best memory wouldn't be that of graduation day, but of the day the four of us lingered on at mac's for four hours, intensely engaged in a conversation about everything under the sun - from army to how young kids these days are so desperate for fame to how the kpop world is a lucrative business to how batman turned into fatman.

Any other way

Just as I thought I've had the worst start to the new year ever, things like bumping into Zhuks and gang at our old hangout spot and catching an impromptu movie together eases the pessimist in me. He must have silently regretted offering me a lift home after reckoning with my incapability to buckle my helmet and how my helmet knocked hard against his once I hopped on. More of my friends should learn how to ride a bike because I love hitching bike rides. Also, Fel and I relived our flea market days at ReStore @ F1 pit building yesterday where we sought cheap thrill from not just haggling, but succeeding in it. Three hours on foot was more than enough to tire the shenanigans out of us. That is all and I hope you've had a weekend as lovely as mine, x

Fresh start fever

New year's eve with the 2e gang as usual, with no concrete plan, also as usual. Wandered back and forth around Clarke Quay and ended up at Fullerton where Jinzhuang found us an ideal spot to watch the splendid fireworks. Joelle managed to get us into Avalon when everywhere else was full house. Probably the first and last time I'd club on new year's eve. The only positive thing I have to say is how I am utterly thankful that I'm entering another new year with yet again the very same ones who have stayed by me throughout the years and that dinner with Kunjie, Jiaying and Junpeng before the countdown lifted my spirits by a whole lot.

2014

Things to expect:

• 25th Feb (last paper)
• Uni applications/ gap year
• Japan backpacking
• Asking Alexandria concert
• Teen Wolf's new season
• Hitting the big 20

Things to take note of:

• Your temper, Sarah. Your fucking temper.
• And your disability to see things from different views when you're flustered
• And needless to say, your vulgarities
• Always prepare for the worst, and don't have such high expectations because life is such and you just gotta fucking suck it up
• Vulgarities