Panorama Flea

Wasn't the best we expected, but awesome company + support makes it up :)
TK FTW! Both Thatskewl and Tanjong Katong. (:

Go think about it.

So I can't get angry at you for deliberately hurting me and you can be mad at me for unintentionally hurting you? If that's the case, the world is f-u-c-k-e-d u-p. It has always been anyway.

I was apologetic. Were you?

You crossed the limits. You hurt me deep.
And just so you haven't realised, I wasn't your first or sole victim.

Thank you Chongy, Stella, Alita and Felicia. I love you all.

"When I grew chubbier, my eyes seemed smaller. I think I have fats around my eyes"
"I was scratching the jiggly part of my stomach (spare tyre)"

What can be a better cheer-up pill than Alita?

I was optimistic. Was is the key word.

Ever been asked "what's with that frown?" and realise you have no answer for that?

It's past midnight already. Why does it still feel so blue?

Monday Blues + Blacks

Idc la, I want to blog even if a week hasn't passed. Angst, angst, angst.

My blue black hasn't subsided at all. Oh, wanna hear the story of how it came about? Once upon a time, Bert pinched me so hard that a blue black formed instantly, and I didn't live ha-fucking-ppily ever after. The end. Motherchao la, I want to chop my arm off. Gonna paste a plaster on it. Such a sore in my eye. Worst yet, a new cut mysteriously appeared on my arm last night. Wtf am I so accident-prone?

Today, I forgot to bring my Chem materials (again) and Mr Foo presented me my first D7 for A.math. "Complacency kills" - I should have believed so. /:

I feel numb. My life has came to a standstill. All I wanna do is mug, nothing but mug. I don't wanna play, nor do I wanna have fun, or should I say I'm trying to find fun in mugging? I just wanna mug, even if it risks my brain to fry like a goreng pisang or to melatup.

I wanna curl myself up underneath my blanket and never wake up. Perhaps that way, I won't hurt/neglect anyone anymore.

Just saying.

I like night study. It works.

Di to the Le to the Mma.

I don't know what to do with my life.

For a moment, I thought I was determined to enter Polytechnic. Now, I'm not too sure.

On second thoughts, perhaps aiming to live a second TK life in MJC (except with a higher level of mugging) would be a more appropriate choice.

But can I even achieve that aim?

Dilemma, dilemma.

I wanna be beside Stella forever...

Day 30 - Your reflection in the mirror

100th post! Perfect.

Dear me,

I am so proud of you. Because you gave yourself 30 days to forget what had made you miserable, and 30 days you took, to pick yourself up. Look at where you are now, so here's to the past: _l_.

You have been a disciplined blogger to have blogged about all 30 themes consistently, but you haven't been a very disciplined student. You're not putting your all in your every test. In fact, you're not putting anything in at all. I am utterly disappointed in you. For that, you shall blog only weekly at the maximum and you shall hit the bed at 11pm every night.

Now that the 30-day challenge's over, it's time to face the real challenge - 'O' Levels.

Ciao ciao for now.

Oh btw, you very chio :B
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA jk.

Love,
me.

Day 29 - The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Dear person-that-I-want-tell-everything-to-but-too-afraid-to,

You have no idea how much one can be so smitten by your smile. You're so shy it makes me want to get closer to you. You're so lame it makes me love lame people. I want to tell you about everything, happy or sad. I want you to tell me "it's gonna be okay" and make me laugh with the stupidest things you say.

But... nah. Definitely not the right time, nor the right person.

Why am I always a mere step behind? Please tell me this is not happening.

Day 28 - Someone that changed your life

Dear Pb,

Hmm, how do I start this? Chronologically, perhaps.

I was your great grandaunt and you were my great grandnephew. I think. The (Joshua) Tan Dynasty was too wide and complex for me to remember who was who, but I have the family tree somewhere in my old file! Just too lazy to retrieve it. We were a big family, together with Joshie, Sha, Lummy, Weeheng, Zhixian and the others. The ang bao you gave me two years ago is effing gay, I swear, but it makes me laugh whenever I see it. "2 cranes for eeu... One with extra 'wings'; to bring yoo further// another one to guide you along your journey..." Euu love me lortss la h0rx? LOL!! (: I bet you don't have mine anymore. You better go give birth to it or something, IDC :(

Anyway, I dug this out from my archives in my ex-blog:

15th July 2007
"just band + stealing of fries + eating prawn tails + opening chilli sauces + swinging of legs + knocking of butts & falling off slippery chairs + hearing of mp3 + taking snapshots of pigs sleeping + going to Jurong & coming back again + raping of water bottles + 8K Freestyle Battle + O2jam.
HOW WONDERFUL IS THAT (: "

It's the most wonderful thing that happened to us, or at least to me. Simple is bliss.

Our days passed like we had all the time in the world. We took the MRT to and fro the extreme ends of the green line just to sleep throughout and we could play AuditionSEA 8K all day. We engaged in a slapping + pinching competition and even created a counter for the number of slaps + pinches we successfully inflicted on each other. Seriously, what were we thinking?! -.- But it was memorable while it lasted :)

Okay, so up till here, I haven't really figured out how you actually changed my life.... but ya. It's for me to know and for you to find out.

K I figured out how you changed my life already. You became my living nightmare.

I love you, Pb. You'll always be my Pb / Chou Zi Pek / Chentuce / Godhasomethingsomething. LOL jk, I hate you. Friends for never. Friends for ever again on 3rd October ;)

Day 27 - The friendliest person you knew for only one day

I haven't known anyone for only a day. I continue knowing them.

But on second thoughts (De Javu..), I think that'd be Soon Hao, although our acquaintanceship lasted for more than a day. That was the shortest one I could recall.

Dear Soon Hao,

I got to know you when you unintentionally added me on MSN because you mistook me for someone else. We shared a common favourite band (Blink 182) and you inspired me to play Hexic 'cause you were an imba Hexic god. Your highscore was 5 million+. I barely even hit 2.5 million. Respect. (Y) I even went to the extent to pause my game during a dead end and took a screenshot of the game to ask you for help, LOL. I vaguely even rememeber you now though, 'cause we don't even talk and the last time we made contact was probably a year ago when you came back to visit TK and recognised me from afar. Hmm, one of the friendliest acquaintance I know, I'd say :)

Gosh, I feel like playing Hexic now.

Day 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to

Hmmm, I don't remember either.

But on second thoughts, I think that'd be Lummy.

I promised him to study hard and to not go out unnecessarily.
We made a bet. In fact, many bets. (:

Dear Lummy,

I WILL BEAT YOU IN EVERYTHING AND I WILL CONTROL ALL TEMPTATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Watch me.

Day 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Dear Bert,

I know it sucks to have your birthday a day before your 'O' Levels English Oral, I know it sucks to have your parents in Australia celebrating your brother's birthday instead of yours, I know it sucks to not be able to celebrate your birthday properly on the actual day itself, but please don't say friends are for backstabbing and betraying and mean it, because they're not and because it hurts to hear these words come from you, the creator of the quote which was meant in sarcasm. Friends are there for you forever ever ever ever ever ever, friends are Stella, Zul, Hajar, Felicia, Alita, Jianhao, Taiming, Gerald and me etc. (okay, and Jannah..), so stop being an emo nemo teamo supremo elmo will you? (:

Dear Stella,

"Am I transparent, invisible, or unnoticable? Choose one.."
I'd choose invisible, but I think you made a typo error there. I'd say it meant "invincible". Shit happens and things don't go the way you want them to turn out to be at times. Be it hard shit, soft shit or normal shit, just flush it down and laugh it off. Things will be better. (:

On a side note, I can't believe this could ever happen, but I'm addicted to Lucifer - SHINee, all thanks to Jannah (again -.-), Nadzirah and well, partly Kiantong.

Day 23 & 24

I am not gonna do:
Day 23 - The last person you kissed
Day 24 - The person that gave you your favorite memory

Lol, 24. Speak about coincidence.

I'mma spend the time on studying instead. B)

Today's A. Math test was set to start a massacre. I'll be waiting for my C5/C6/D7.
Bah, we'll see. Bus-ed home with Fel and Jo today and I realised that I miss Jiaying a lot a lot a lot. ):

Jiaying, if you see this:
I miss you, 我想你, 보고 싶다, Tu me manques

Day 22 - Someone you want to give a second chance to

Dear someone-I-want-to-give-a-second-chance-to,

Even if you can glue back the pieces of a shattered glass bottle, the scars remain.

Okay, kinda like running out of things to say for this 30-day challenge already, so I'll talk about my day, about happier stuff :)

So, fireworks with the usuals didn't happen because most of them couldn't make it. Ended up joining Kunjie, Junpeng and Jinzhuang at Eunos for some NDP event before we headed off to Marina Square to catch the fireworks. Xuanhao joined us there too. They're my life saviours. \m/ We managed to squeeze our way out and walked to Clarke Quay to lepak by the river. Awesome awesome scenery + atmosphere. I love the night life :D





They grabbed a bite and we rushed home before it struck midnight. Took a bath and packed like a bullet train and whined and whined for Mom to send me over to the airport to ton with Hajar, Jannah and Shaza. :B My mom gave in as usual but ton failed because Jannah, Hajar and I dozed off in the end -.- Jannah the budget girl kept koping the free internet there. Another budget-er man stood infront of the computer for two freaking hours. Finally decided to retreat back home at 6am odd. But we should do this more often, heh heh :)





Caught a short nap and woke up to Stella's call. The rest were at Stella's place already so I was the last one. Did FOUR PAGES of Emath (LOL so much for Homework Day again) and spent the rest of the time mass making Mini Gobz. We have recruited a new factory worker!


Let's all welcome Hajar to the Thatskewl company :)

K that's all folks. Ciao.

Day 21 - Someone you judged by their first impression

Dear Gerawr,

The first time I came to know you when you still had bushy, mushroom-like hair and white-framed glasses, I saw you as a person who's different from the others, in a good sense. I have no idea why but I thought you were cool, like (8 cool, but boy was I wrong... LOL jk. You are still cool to me, and I'm glad I got to know you more. My impression of you changed. You were more than cool, you were special, and you had inner virtues that covered all your flaws. You're good with your words, you have a flare in photography and you cherish your friends a lot, which is what makes you Gerawr. Love you, Bestie. ^^v And I need to play with Charlotte soon. Miss her to death!!!!

I'm not quite sure myself if this post answers the theme for today, but I felt like writing about you anyway.

Happy birthday, Singapore!

"Singapore's 45 already but she's still so hot"
HAHHAHA. K this really cracked me up.

Day 20 - The one that broke your heart the hardest

Blah.

I had prawn mee for lunch and beef teriyaki for dinner today and I'm gonna watch fireworks with the usuals tomorrow. So stoked!


I am a happy kid and I love the people in the above picture so who bothers about the one who broke my heart the hardest :).

Day 19 - Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

I love you. Wait, I loved you.

You run through my mind all day long. I think of you in school. I think of you when I board the bus. I think of you when I buy stuff. Because you are a compulsory subject. Because I need to you to count my bus fares. Because I need you to calculate if I have enough cash on hand.

I felt safe with you then because you made my L1R5 not seem so bad. Now, you're such a pest. All the good in you is fading away. I've had too much of you. The sight of you makes me sick.

Dear Math, you pester my mind a lot.

Haixxxxxx Math is driving me insane.

Day 18 - The person that you wish you could be

Dear me,

You are so cool that I wish I could be you.
Oh wait, I already am you!

Heh heh heh :)

Love,
Boredgirl94.

Day 17 - Someone from your childhood

K, this is a toughie. Let's see.....

Dear Jiakang,

All of us used to gather at my/Popo's house every weekend and have our yearly Genting trips during the June holidays and you were like my closest couzzie ever 'cause we're both of the same age and we used to be tallest two. Okay fine, you still are but I'm not anymore. And your mom used to "matchmake" us and took nude photos of us together when we were babies which is gross yet funny -.- I'm not close to any of you right now 'cause we hardly even meet. Blame school. I miss you all leh. Can we hang out again soon?!!??! It'd be awkward but let's try! :(

Day 16 - Someone that’s not in your state/country

This is easy :)

First thing that came to my mind (unfortunately): Paul Ngieng.

Dear Paul the Nub,

You suck at Hexic.. You suck at Checkers.. You suck at........
Well, I don't wanna name the whole list so ya you get the general message :)

LOL jk.

But honestly, one thing you don't suck at is calling me names. -.-

You are one of the wanna-box-your-face-est people I've ever met and it was retarded while our friendship lasted although you're like all the way in Aussie now. I can relate you to Day 14 too. You weren't as mean to me as you are now! Mean person, you can go and die. But I will remember you always, mean person. BECAUSE I AM NICE.

Day 15 - The person you miss the most

I will not miss anyone anymore. Not for the stupidest reasons. Because they said it wasn't worth being sad over something gone nor hoping for its return. Because when I do, my mood falls from way up there in the sky down to the cold, hard ground. Not gradually, just straight down. What do you call that again? A free fall, is that it? Yeah. The one with no air resistance. I know my Physics.

If it weren't for the people around me who care for me enough to pick me up, I'd have been stuck deep down in the well of misery for long enough.

I was real. Everything about me was.
I mustered all I could to brick my heart up so strong and impregnable, but it came crashing down with the slightest things you said.

Thanks so much. I'm back at square one. But watch me break through to square two, then square three, square four, square five and so on.

Did I just make sense? I have no idea myself.

Day 14 - Someone you’ve drifted away from

Then again, why should I let you affect me? I will finish what I started.

Dear Gabbie,

I miss my primary school days, when I still had you around to protect me from the evil Freddy Phung, when I listened to the songs you listened to, when you promised to play me Carousel - Blink 182, when you loved me like a brother loved a sister. I don't talk to you much anymore. In fact, not even once a month. But after the previous time we had a webcam session which unexpectedly lasted till 3am, I can safely say you are still the you who never fails to make me smile (especially your extremely zhao xia voice + stupid lao kok kok chinese songs). You really made my day. I wish I could webcam with you all day just so I can put aside my troubles for the moment. Don't worry, I am not in love with you. (:

I am still desperately searching for the video I made for you years ago. I. Want. To. Watch. It.

Day 14 - I'm ending it all.

Not doing this fucking thing anymore. I hate being restricted for the things I can say.

Paullie Ngieng the sad boy

Was just checking my Nuffnang awhile ago.
I know who that 1.67% from Australia comes from, HAHAHA.

Thatskewl is kewl!!!!

By the way, please go visit Thatskewl because we updated! Preview of stuff:

(I personally ♥ this one a lot, a lot, a lot x 100000)

All these are made with the help of Bert, Zul, Fel, Taiming & Chongy! Yay them! ♥
And we'll be having a booth at the Panorama Flea too:

Venue: New Scape Building – Street & Art Market
Address: Next to Cathay Cineleisure
Date: 28th August 2010
Time: 12pm – 8pm

GO GO GO OGAY?!

So what about your princess crying on the front steps? Nobody's gonna come and save your day.